Wednesday, May 11, 2011

I'm not perfect

I 'm not perfect. I have a big mouth, I say shit I should not say. I am to honest and my expectations for people are a little to high.

But here's the thing, there is really not anything that I would not do for someone if asked. I go out of my way to make people happy and to make people like me (also a fault I suppose) I ask very little in return. I ask for honesty no matter what the situation is. If you don't like me that's cool, just say so. If you don't want to be friends with me, cool. Just say so. If my kids totally loves to hang with your kids but you can't stand me. Fine, we don't have to hang, drop your kids off and let the kids play we don't have to sit out back and have cocktails while they play.

There is nothing more heartbreaking to me than to think I am friends with someone than to find out all along it was one sided.

Nothing worse than being good friends (or so thought) with someone for years and to find out that you were not.

Rule of thumb, if someone talks bad about other people to you they probably have no problem talking bad about you to other people also.

2 totally different issues going on, just having a bad week in the friend, or lack there of, arena of my life.

And because I have totally lost all anonymity of my blog I am sure this will give folks yet another reason to decide why I am not cool enough to hang with the cool kids. Funny, you think all of these issues and feelings, pains die in High School but a last they do not.

My own fault for not being able to shake it off. Just not as fabulous as others are I guess.


Mommy's Sippy Cup said...

This seriously just happened to me. My husband's best friend and I have always been friends. So I thought. It was brought to my attention the past 6 years we have been hanging out, I'm not her favorite person.....but we always do things together. Nice. Some people need to confront the issue and just say something! I'm not a mind reader.

Hope you have a better week!

Danifred said...

If it makes any difference, I love you and I always will.
Screw some catty bitches.
Who needs the drama?

~ Megan said...

Amen sister. I feel your pain. Motherhood can be a lonely place - especially in the early years. We moved from CA to NC right before my son turned 3. I found out I was pregnant the day we arrived in our new home. It has been a rollercoaster of meeting *new friends*, realizing who you thought people were, is not who they really are, and often times realizing you don't really like someone as you initially thought you did. Or vice cersa. Unfortunately, some of these people are our direct neighbors. Makes for some akward interactions. Hang in there!!

Sara said...

Ugh, totally happened to me. I was friends with this girl for like 5 years, she was even a bridesmaid in my wedding, but, as soon as I had a kid and stopped going to the bar? She pulled the disappearing friend act and refuses to answer my calls or call me back.